Mixed Emotion's

I creeped into Jackson's room tonight after I put him down to take a picture of his sweet face. I will be leaving in the morning at 4:30 and won't return for 5 hours. I won't be there when he wakes up, the first time ever. It makes me sad just thinking about it. Even though I am excited to be alone, and have some professional adult time, I am so sad about leaving my baby. And also I am sad thinking about when he is hungry his Mommy won't be there to feed him. See Jackson still won't take a bottle, scary huh. He will probably exercise his lungs a lot tomorrow, poor baby. And Daniel, he doesn't do well with the baby screaming, bad combo, I can just hope for a miracle that he will latch on to that bottle. I have warned the neighbor, Daniel may need a break, and she is so sweet she said of course come get me if you need me. Another worry is leaking, I am crossing my fingers hoping it doesn't happen.