I don't know who signed that permission slip to go to camp, but they aren't my best friend right now, that is for sure. So this morning was the BIG day, Kirsten has been beside herself excited for days, for example this picture was taken at 4 in the morning!! See what I mean, I wonder if she even slept at all, I didn't that is for sure. I woke up at 2 and thought it was time to get up. I started extra early this morning (woke up at 3 AM)so I would be able to see her leave, it just dawned on me last night that I was going to be gone. It made me cry just talking about it with Daniel, so I worked it out, kinda. I went into her room this morning to hug and kiss her and tell her I love her and all the don't forget about that thing we talked about and dont forget all the other 50 things I told you not to do, ok. It was dark so she didn't know that I already cried my eyes out, but in this picture you can tell. I knew I had to be there no matter what when she said, "I really want you to be there Mom".
Why is it so hard, maybe because she is the first kid to leave with someone that is not a grandparent? Or that I am over protective and controlling, or maybe I am just a big baby. But I cried big tears today, streams down my face, making a pouting face cry, and even the out loud cry, like a little kid. Driving, walking down the grocery store aisle, stalking selves, and even standing around 60 people at her school. I couldn't hold it in, it was just so sad for me. How am I ever going to hold out until Friday? It will be to quit without her, who will be mean to Kel's?
I really wanted the shoot of her walking into the bus and waving good bye on the bus, but I couldn't stay any longer. With a pain in my heart I walked away, my little baby girl was leaving me, in a strangers hands.
I am so excited to see her excited, she will have so much fun, but, at least she said she will miss me, like three times. And I even got, "If I was the Mom, I don't know if I would want my kid to go to camp?", wow, that was a surprise. I didn't really think I was going to let her, I wonder who signed that letter still.
So she is gone, just until Friday. Kelsey cried when Kirsten said goodbye to her, until Friday when she asks if she can live somewhere else, sisters, geez. 
4 comments:
awww poor mommy! I can't believe how grown up Kirsten is! Hope she has a great time! Don't worry mom time will fly.
Annie, I know just how you feel. Last June I let Jessie go to church camp for a week. After I agreed to it and signed all the forms and paid the fees I felt sick. I missed her like crazy the whole time, tried to keep busy re-decorating her room and shopping for summer clothes for her. It made me feel better that I was doing something just for her while she was away. I got to spend extra time with the little ones. Kelsey will probably enjoy being the biggest sister for awhile. Kirsten will have so much fun and come back and be excited to tell you all about it. Hang in there. You'll be okay too. :)
I totally remember when Trevor went away to camp in 6th grade, I was a wreck too! I had his schedule for the week on my desk and looked at it constantly and prayed he would be okay. He was fine, it was me with the problem! Kaylo went away in 4th grade to Awana Church camp and I was fine that time. She will have a great time and it will be a happy reunion for all of you!
I know exactly haw you feel. I COULDN'T let Alexis go. I tagged along with her. I was not about to let my kid go with someone I didn't know. Then being there for those 4 days with her and seeing all of the delinquint kids she goes to school with I know in my heart that I COULD have let her go without me because she has a good head on her shoulders and I know she would have made smart choices even if MOMMY wasn't standing there.
Don't worry girl. Your daughter is a good girl and is going to be fine and just think of the stories she is going to tell you when she gets back!!!
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